After the divorce is, finalized…translated…
To My Children in 2030:
As I’m penning this down, you were only five and six, still fought, “why am I the bigger and not the smaller?”, and so, I’m written to you as adults. Since I got divorced from your father, I’d felt my heart torn to pieces, not being able to be with you guys all the time. And, although from when you were little, you’d know, that I’m a mom that likes to sever things, to throw away the old items, your toys, but, severing off your dad, that, was a choice I’d had to make. I can’t say, that I don’t regret my rash decision, and regretted all the time, leaving you guys, but, don’t you think, that after mommy and daddy divorced, we’d stopped fighting as often? Daddy also stayed with you guys at home to help you with your homework more. Correction: he’d, spent every minute of the day by your sides.
Grandpa and grandma, naturally, hoped we would get back together, be a happy family again, but I’d already, moved out, and, taking back the divorce isn’t as easy as having it nullified at the local offices, we’d needed to reregister for marriage again, for it to count. Your dad already has a new girlfriend now, he couldn’t easily, take me back, and I have my considerations too. Besides, I feel no love toward your father, I cared more about the two of you.
illustration from online…
We got divorced at the end of November in 2017, because we didn’t want to let you guys down, we’d still gone on that family vacation together to the trip to Korea before our divorce was, finalized around New Year’s of 2018. Your grandmother was there too, she bore witness to how your father and I made almost no contact whatsoever, that we’d only, handed you off to one another.
And now, I’m trying to find a job, left the company set up by your paternal grandfather now, it surely isn’t easy, surviving away, with the starting salary of $25,000N.T. a month, at my first few interviews, I’d not kept the truth of how I was, recently divorced away from my prospective employers, but afterwards, the employers, didn’t call me back. Later on, I’d, adjusted my way of saying it, only told them, that my last job was set up by a relative, that it had me too settled in, that was why I left.
Although I still hadn’t found a job yet, perhaps, mom hasn’t enough abilities, or, I’d, aimed too high, I will keep on, trying to find a job that’s fitting for me. Because I have faith, that I can survive, that was why, I’d worked up the courage, to leave your dad, and so, you guys don’t need to worry about me now, or in the future. I just hope, that when you find love, you can, be truthful, it doesn’t matter if you guys marry or not, have children or not, so long as you reach an understanding with your girlfriends. More importantly, I hope, that if you guys become, unfortunate, to end up like your dad and me, you can become cooperative parents with your ex-wives/ex-girlfriends, take care of your young well, and I hope, that your dad and I, can be good role models for you on this.
Mom, in 2018
And so, for whatever reasons, you and your ex-husband had, divorced, and, you didn’t want it to impact your children too greatly, so, you’d, written this letter, explaining to them, why things didn’t work out, and how, you’d, regretted leaving your own young behind, but, it was the only option you had when you left, because you didn’t have a job, you couldn’t even survive on your own, and so, you’d, left your children in the care of their father, and the purpose of this letter is merely to, help your children gain a better understanding of what had happened between you and your
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