Letting Go

Obsessed, and intoxicated, to that thrill of the chances of getting that reward from the games, kinda like being in love, isn’t it??? Translated…

“Why must you be so persistent?”

Recalling how you and I first met, looking back, it’d, dawned on me, how serendipitous it’d all been, and yet, it felt like fate, somewhat. Was it love at first sight? Perhaps, and, perhaps, not! You’d not, prodded, nor hidden yourself, just, exposed all of your self, in front, of others, like you weren’t, afraid of, any challenges that, come your way.

And yet, that’d, deepened, this sort of desire inside of me, the desire called, “owning”.

Even though, I kept, getting beaten, gotten, injured very badly by you, I’d still, struggled, in each and every one of my defeats with you.

But, after the nth time you’d, turned me away, my mind finally, returned, back to where it once was, slowly, I was able to, calm back down.

like this???  Photo from online…

Perhaps, I was the one who’s been wrong all along. I shouldn’t have, trusted you so, allowing you, to just, take from me, so endlessly………

Perhaps, by letting go, I was, finally, able, to have. I shouldn’t have, made you the expectation of my deepest, desires, after all, even now, you still, don’t belong, to me!

Perhaps, that’s it then! At least, I was, there by your side, and can, still, look upon you.

“I don’t think so, you should just, give her up”, I’d heard my friend sighed, standing before you, I’d, felt that heart ache, once more.

In the end, I can, only, choose, to turn away, to allow my regrets, and my anger, hatred, to get, turn into, that invisible, smoke that’s, risen.

so addictive, the promises of getting that useless prize…photo from online…

“This machine was a cheat! Where’s that guarantee? I’d, already, spent too much~~sob~~~sob………”

And so, this, is what it’s, getting to, how easily, people can, get addicted, to the false promises of winning that prize, that USELESS stupid, doll? And yet, you still, keep on tossing away those, ten-dollar coins in, because it’s, such a small price to pay, for the illusions of how you might win something, USELESS, and, who wants those, stupid items inside those machines anyways, they all, END up as JUNKS anyway, and yet, people still can’t stop, throwing their coins away………