Let there be NO regrets! Translated…
My father died abruptly, as he’d fallen down, his loved ones weren’t near. I’d often thought that, if there are things he’d needed to say us but didn’t get the chance to? But my father never came to me in my dreams, and there’s, no way, for me to know it anymore.
And so, I’d told myself, that I’d needed to, say a proper goodbye to my mother, so even if one day she dies, I’d hoped, to not have any regrets or doubts left behind. So, every time my mother wanted to talk, I’d become, her faithful listener. And, being in her eighties, she’d, naturally, mentioned death from time to time, and I’d never told her to stop saying things like that, nor would I let her worry about me after she was gone, and told her my plans for my own future, so she’s, more at ease.
As my mother started worrying about her closet full of clothes, being hard to handle after she dies, I’d immediately told her, why don’t I select a few that fitted me, and take it home to wear; and every time afterwards, when I’d come home to visit, I’d, intentionally, put on the clothes she worried about, because I knew, she would always feel, elated as she saw me in them.
If she wanted to see someone, then, I’d, gone through everything, done everything I can, to arrange for her to meet up with the individual. She’d cared very much, that she’d not seen my eldest aunt before she died, and, so, my younger brother and youngest sister would often take her to visit my aunt and uncles, so she can hold her conversations with her siblings, to take advantage of every minute they can spend together.
I’d also recycled the materials with my mother, compared to interfering with what she enjoyed doing in the name of love, I’d much rather spending more time to hold conversations with her, even if we’d always, run around the same subjects of discussion.
Slowly, it seemed, that I’d, found the resolve I’d needed, from these practices in goodbye, and I’d believed, that my father, who’s in heaven, had NO regrets, because he knew, that all of us, his children will, do our best, to take good care of his wife, our mother.
And so, this individual was taking the mindset of making up for the regrets of not saying her final farewell to her father properly, to love her mother now, and, by doing this, she’s made up, for the regrets of not being able to properly say goodbye to her own father, and she’d, gotten to spend a lot of the precious time with her own mother too.