What the demented elderly experiences, with the loss of more than just, their cognitive abilities…
I’m, finding it hard, to express myself, to make my thoughts materialize, to get what I think, into words. I don’t know why, my thought processes are clear (enough), and yet, as I, attempted to, verbalize my thoughts, my needs, what I want, from my family members, things get, jumbled up for some reasons.
Finding it hard, to express myself, and soon, I’ll, turned, completely, MUTE, I suppose, as my speech is becoming more and more slurred by the day (due to the lack of fine motor control???), and soon, I’ll, return to the day when I was in my infantile years (not that I can remotely remember those days!), and just CRY, for my needs, and hopefully, my caretakers will, be able to, differentiate, what my cries are!
Finding it hard, to express myself, it’s not easy, for someone like me, who used to be (those days are, long gone now!), so autonomous, I took care of everybody in the household, I USED to be the one, mothering others, and now, I’m in need, of mothering, believe it or not!
Finding it hard, to express myself, so, I won’t even, talk anymore, it’s not like, anybody would, attempt to understanding what I’m saying (b/c I’m speaking like I have a ping-pong ball in my mouth???), so yeah, I’d, become, MUTED, but I’m still, extremely aware, of what goes on, all around me, so, don’t you think, that for one second, you will ever, pull, a fast one on me………
Life, the Obstacle Course 