On loss, translated…
My mother who’d held herself to such a high standard, compounded with the demands of her high-pressure work environment, hadn’t been sleeping well for many years on end. With her getting older, I’d started worrying about how if Alzheimer’s had, found its way, up my mother’s doorsteps, based off of the smaller details in her life? Although I knew, she usually forgets from time to time, but I’d still, walked on eggshells over it, and constantly felt the need to check, if she’d lost her sense of direction in her life or not.
Toward Alzheimer’s, we’d carried this attitude of fear towards it, because once it’d been diagnosed, the soul become slowly, drained away from the individual, leaving behind, the weakening body, which will become even MORE burdensome for the family. I couldn’t help, but start wondering about the meaning of life, what, do we leave behind, after we’d had, Alzheimer’s? In the movie, “Still Alice”, the last scene froze on the female protagonist, strolling on the beach, without the glories of her last meal shared with her loved ones, without the status quo of her professorship and how much money she’d made, but with the eternal love of her loved ones; this long-term ignored, small, but simple kind of bliss, perhaps, it’s, the only thing that remained, after we got everything, taken from our lives, I suppose?
Even if one day, I must face the fact, of the slow progressions of losing my self, I hope, that after all the noises died, I can still leave behind, the precious memories for my loved ones.
So, this, is the conclusion the writer gained from watching her own mother deteriorate away due to Alzheimer’s, and, it’s true, that Alzheimer’s will take EVERYTHING from you, and, you will have NOTHING (sometimes NOT even your own dignity!) left, but, if you have a good relationship with your loved ones, then, they will be your backup, your support, and, they will, hopefully, stay by your side, as you battle every single day, with this debilitating condition of the slow-decline of the mind.