This is all, going to, HURT real bad, and, it’s still Y-O-U, who’s currently, experiencing this constant “split”…
When the body, mind and heart are NOT on the same “page”, meaning that all of the above “parts” of you are experiencing the traumas that had happened to you (as a whole???), separately, because, even as your mind had, blocked out ALL those bad things (i.e. sexual molestation, rape, physical abuse, etc., etc., etc.) that had happened to you when you were younger, and you just, lacked the ability to cope with EVERYTHING effectively.
and this, would be how it feels…not my artwork.
When the body, mind, and heart are NOT on the same “page”, you’ll feel your selves, split, into god only KNOWS how many aching parts, and, each of those parts will ache independently of one another, and, there’s, NO way, for you (the owner of the “sum” of your “parts”) to control any of it!
When the body, mind, and heart are NOT on the same “page”, there’s, NOTHING you can do, but to just, sit on the “fences” (like how I would prefer???), and watch that metaphorical “ball” get tossed from side A, to side B, back to side A again, and that “ball” is NOT gonna get DROPPED, and, NONE of the “players” will be called “out” for it!
When the body, mind, and heart are NOT on the same “page”, it’s just the “sum” of you, trying, to tell you, that something had happened, that’s, led to where you currently are now, and, you have ONE of two options: either dig deeper, to find out what the HECK had happened to Y-O-U, or you can, ignore ALL those “signs” that you’d failed to pick up on, and, if you “apply” the second “option”, you will surely, find yourselves, deeper, than you had begun in the first place…
and as that saw gets deeper, and deeper, it’ll only, hurt more, and more!