They Tell You it NEVER Happened!

They tell you it never happened, when you went to them, and told them what happened to you in daycare, one of the caretakers was inappropriate towards you. They tell you it never happened, all the adults, they just, brushed your pains, hurts aside, and, you were, betrayed, over, over, over, AND over again as a young child.

And, as you grew older, your mind had, swept that bad part of your early childhood days, into that dustpan, and, dumped ALL that TRASH into your subconscious mind. Until one day, after something drastic happened to you, everything, it’d come, flying back, hit you so fast and so god DAMN hard, and, you were, having a very difficult time, coping with, coming to terms with it all.

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They tell you it never happened, because if those god DAMN, STUPID adults (‘cuz, let’s face it, ALL you adults are just, WAY too M***ER F***ING retarded here!!!) acknowledge what had happened to you as real, then, they would be the ones to blame, for NOT taking good enough care of you, and they will have to be “branded” with the labels of “bad parents”, or “unfitting caretakers” or whatever, and they can’t let that happen!!!

So, they tell you, it never happened, that you’d, made it all up, because you longed for their attention, blah, blah, b-l-a-h, and, after a while, you’d started believing it too, that those awful, bad, atrocious things that happened to you, never did actually happen, and, you’d, neglected that damaged child that you were, long ago…………

They tell you it NEVER happened, but it had, and so, you are now, experiencing, that awful feeling of cognitive dissonance (and trust me, it doesn’t feel good one bit, getting pulled as the rope in that tug-of-war!!!), because your body and/or mind remembers it all too clearly, but, all those outside stimuli (your adult counterparts, the society, the world outside) tells you, that IT never happened!!! And, right ‘bout this time, is when you start, “splitting” up mentally……………see how the light is going out of this child’s eyes, and how fearful he looked???  Not my photo…