Did You FUCKING Turn Around???

this, was how I felt growing up!!!  Not my photograph…

Did you FUCKING turn around, to see the DAMAGES you had, caused in EVERYBODY else’s, including your own lives? Of course N-O-T, because if you had, then, you would be, buried in your own shame, and miseries, and because you LACKED the ability, to see EVERYTHING evil you’d done, because you still lived in the denial, that you had been, a wonderful, loving (how was abuse loving again??? Oh wait, it wasn’t!) father to your own daughter and son, I mean, after all, you did, give us, ALL those BULLSHITTING materials that we’d NEVER asked you for (the Polo shirts, Burberry shirts, oh, and there’s that, Fendi Watch that you could, switch out the straps too, and the latest, an iPad, which I’d NEVER asked you for, and, the only REASON WHY you’d bought that for me, was because you bought your god DAMN stupid son one, after he’d asked you for one!!!).

You already have your lollipop and Teddy too, why aren’t you happy, kid???  And, what MORE do you want???  Not my photograph still…

Did you FUCKING turn around, to see the DAMAGES you’d caused, started when I was just seven, when you mother fucking FUCKED that whore, and, how you’d, gotten down on your knees with her, BEGGED your own mother (and maybe your EX-wife too, I don’t know ‘bout that one though…), to let the two of you, keep that ILLEGITIMATE child of yours, and how your WHORE had, left her own young when she was a young child, to go on her spiritual retreat and shit!!! Naturally, N-O-T!

Did you FUCKING turn around, nope, you’d, kept your eyes forward, from the very start of YOUR life, while I had, walked BACKWARDS, for the last twenty-SEVEN WHOLE years, and now, I’m done, living in the past, and now, it’s, your turns, to get, STUCK in the past like I once was.