The Money from My Side of the Family

Thoughts, translated…

Deep in the night, I’d, examined the list of mutual funds I own, contemplated on which ones I can get the money back for; recently, I’d needed to, pay back a huge sum of money, to my own mother.

My mother is retired, she’d earned more retirement funds by the month than I’d earned wages, she has a house, no mortgage. She’d loved my two kids so, and loved my older brother’s children as well, seemingly, she’d, treated them all the same; my older brother has stable work, my sister-in-law works too, they lived very close to my mom, and, after school, the kids would have someone to look after them, I lived a bit farther from my mother, and so, I’d had to send my kids to afterschool programs.

Now, I’d needed to, make my own money, I have loans unpaid, my kids are, very young as well, and so, there’s, a whole lot of expenses that I’m having, and I’d needed to, make more investments: the mutual funds, the sotcks………everything that can help me make extra money, I’m there, I’d studied everything in the spare time I have aside from work, and, although it’d cost me a lot of money, getting into the investments, but, it’d allowed me to have more spare money to spend, and, I’d held my heart of gratitude toward my mother too, would give her stuff, sent her abroad on trips too.

A little over a year ago, my mother learned of my investments, and hoped that she could invest in the “twenty-percent gain per year” kind. I’d told her, that it’s not something she could learn overnight, that it would need her to put in some time and money too, she’d withdrawn some money, wired it into my account, said, “You help me make the investments!”, I’d placed the amount into the markets and I’d allowed my mother to see the account, know the passwords, and everything, so she can log in and check out how the funds were doing herself.

Recently, my mother asked, “can you withdraw the amount now?” “Not yet! It’s going to take three years.” “Didn’t you say it was just two years?”, “the funds were reordered once, didn’t I hand you the report?”, and maybe, it’s because of the scammers on the news, my mother felt scammed by me.

After once, or twice, but my mother had asked about it, more than ten times on end, she’d beaten around the bushes, to find out, where, exactly her money was? That all the money she’d worked hard for her whole life, would it be gone completely? Even as my kids went over to visit, they were asked about it by her too.

And that, was when I realized, that I was, too careless, not paid attention to my mother’s insecurities. She’d worked hard her whole life, and needed the money to be close by so she felt secure. Many years ago, as I bought my property, my mother handed me a little over three million dollars for the down payment, but as I got married, my mother asked for the same amount from my in-laws, as a dowry, it’d made me feel, embarrassed.

And I’d missed that my mother, although she stated she was more than fair toward my older brother and I, but she’s really, sexist. She’d bought a house for my older brother, sent her grandkids to talent courses, took care of her grandkids, without demanding a cent from them, that every now and then, my older brother and his family would head over to my mom’s to eat, free of charge too; and every now and then, my mother would remind them, to get a newer, saver car, but, showed absolutely NO concern for my pre-owned over fifteen-years car, and once, my mother was taking my child to an activity, she’d not forgotten, to tell me, that the registration fees are $1,500 each, told me to not forget to have the kids come over with it.

I think, I should, sell a couple of the mutual funds I’d already made a lot from, and, pay up this, heavy debt completely! And, what’s heavy about this debt was not the amount of money out on loan, but, it’s, a sort of an understanding I’d gained, from interacting with my own mother!

And so, you do see, how although this elderly says she’s NOT being unfair, but she acted unfairly, right? She’d taken care of her son’s children and family, NO charge at all, and yet, when it came to her own daughter, whom she’d also carried for NINE months inside, went through hard labor to bring out into this world, there’s, this difference of treatment, and that’s just it: there are still, a TON of age-old beliefs that people are unknowingly, enforcing onto their own young, and, these elders may think that they were, more than fair already, but, they’re, actually NOWHERE N-E-A-R fair, to their sons versus their own daughters!