It’s not healthy, to keep all the sorrows you feel over the loss of someone you loved bottled in, or at least, that, is what they all tell me…
But, I have, other members of my family who are, relying on me, to be strong, so, I’d, forced my own sorrows into lock-down. Allowing myself to grieve for the loss of you, I can’t, there’s no way possible, for me to do so, because after you’d gone, whenever my nose gets red, everybody would zoom in on me, and start asking me if I was okay, and I know, that they’re doing it out of care and concern, but sometimes, I just, wish, that the spotlight can get taken off of me…
not my photograph…
So, I cried, in the nights, when everybody else is asleep already, and nobody can hear me weep over the loss of you. Allowing myself to grieve over the loss of you, I know it’s not healthy, to keep everything like it’s a-okay, but, I need to put up this strong front, for everybody else, as everyone looks to me, as a pillar of strength, and, if I cracked or fell, then, they would all, crumble to pieces too, and that, would be dire!
Allowing myself to grieve over the loss of you, I finally found the time to, last year, I went on my vacation alone, and on that vacation, I’d cried, endlessly, all day long, and for once, I didn’t give a SHIT if anybody looks at me weird, because I’d needed to, unload all these burdens I’d carried, for the past year or so………
not my photo still…
Life, the Obstacle Course 