Seeing that First Love Again

Experiences of life, translated…

Everybody says, that first love is the most beautiful, and if they didn’t make it for the long haul, then after both were married to other people, then one day, when each of them feels beaten by reality, then, they’d longed for those days of old more, and those lost best friends of the earlier years, and, that first love that couldn’t make it for the long run.  My friend, Ching-Ching, is exactly like that, she’d married for thirty-five years, and, the life with her husband became ordinary, ritualistic, the love turned bland, and, she’d wanted to, look up her first love again, and went to meet up with him in a heated moment.

are you stupid???

Ching-Ching told me, that they’d been in love for four years in their college careers, and she’d thought, that he was the one she was destined to marry, but, after he was out of the service, he’d wanted to break up with her, he’d fallen for a younger schoolmate, and she’d known about that younger schoolmate too, looked ordinary, but, with great wealth of the family, after he’d married, he’d immediately found a good job, and, in a few short years, he’d gotten to the high up positions, and, she’d hated him for leaving her for the other woman, for the sake of wealth, and vowed, to never see this man again for the rest of her life.

After forty years of not keeping in touch, the love and the hate had already, gotten lost with the years, she’d called him up to meet, he’d agreed, and, Ching-Ching put on her floral print dress, put on her mascara, lipstick, still looked beautiful like she had and, her first love, other than his sideburns turned all white, still looked, just as handsome as he did back then.  Ching-Ching couldn’t help but make fun, “After you’d married a rich girl, you’d worked twenty years less, you must’ve been set for life then!”, he’d told her, that he’d been, long divorced, and, Ching-Ching gloated more, than she felt sorry for him.

not my picture still…

He’d immediately handed her a small piece of paper, with the account numbers of a bank on it, “what’s this?”, Ching-Ching asked, timidly.  He said, that he’d gotten into business with a friend, and was a bit tight on money, needed Ching-Ching’s help, to lend him some money, “Do you have two hundred grand?  Wire it to me tomorrow morning!”, hearing how affirmed and ordering he was, she’d become, stunned, replied back to him coldly, “I don’t want to lend you my money, I think, we will never see each other again!”

Ching-Ching told me, that meeting up with her first love, she was, originally expectant, but, it didn’t go as she’d expected, other than feeling disappointed, she’d also felt some regret, and believed, that he must’ve been having it hard, otherwise, he wouldn’t have asked her for help.  Ching-Ching said, friends need to help each other out, and that if she’d become, too cold?  That, could he think, that she’s still upset about getting dumped by him?  Actually, the reason why she’d not lent him the money was because she’d not wanted anything to do with him ever again, and that she couldn’t look her husband in the eyes if she’d lent him the money………and, all I can do, as a bystander was to tell her, “of course you should leave, or, are you going to, have an affair with him?”

A lot of things, we can’t get back, and, those better memories of the younger years, just, keep them all, at the bottom of that pile, no need to remind ourselves of constantly; rather than meeting up again, just, light a light in the night, and, slowly, savor, the taste of that beautiful love that’s already, over and done with.

there is that reason WHY those three men are blurred out you know???

So, this, is the problem with women, isn’t it?  We’re all, way too emotional, when we bumped into our first love, we would feel jittery inside, because, OMG, he looked me up, without knowing, that the LOSERS may have alternative motives, and, this woman was wise, to NOT lend ANY money to her first love, because if she had, she not only wouldn’t get her money back, her husband would probably divorce her for lending their collective assets out to someone she fell for a long time ago…