Translated…
Awhile back, I’d thumbed across the “Senior User Manual”, of the listed items, “The Most Fulfilling and Most Beautiful: Passing Through the Stages Speedily, to Enter into Heaven Sooner” touched my heart the most.
I’d thought about how I’d spent my life, busying myself, taking up the roles of daughter, wife, mother, teacher, I’d, lived for others, there’s no sense of my self whatsoever, I’d only, answered to my clear conscience! After I’d turned sixty, with the burdens slowly, taken off my shoulders one by one, I’d finally had, days, to just myself, in the years that I have remaining, I’d needed to, make the days count more, so I wouldn’t have, lived this life in vain.
I’m very happy with my seventy-five years of life in sum, there’s no regrets, no not-yet-dones, there’s also no owing anything that’s left unpaid, and now, my most ideal way of life is, “playing until I die”.
There’s a very wide range to my “playing”, other than smiling at the world every single day, traveling the world, these topnotch ways of life, I’m also a frequent customer at the two primary concert halls in Taipei, I’d gone to see the exhibitions, gotten involved with the book clubs, even started taking courses in writing, to start over again, as a student, learn to put down the memories, as well as the thought provoking things that came to me in life too, then, I’d donated my earnings from my essays, to charitable purposes, giving back to the world, so I don’t leave a blank in my own elderly years.
Churchill has a motto, “As the bar closes, I will leave then.”, as is, the way in the journey of life too. On the body, I’d done some minor tuning up, and skipped the major makeovers, I’d signed my own DNR already; I’d followed the traditional norms, and ignored the unreasonable request made of me. And, I’d asked my daughters, to dress me up in my most beautiful Chinese traditional dress, and be lain to rest at the rural areas in Taipei, next to my own parents, close to nature.
“Playing until I drop”, is the wish I’m currently overseeing now, and, I wish, for a “speedy passage into heaven”, I leave it, up to God to help me accomplish that, and I have, a full life!
So, this shows how the mindset had changed, from when you were younger, when you were younger, you’d chased after the unimportant things in life, fortune, fame, etc., etc., etc., and now, as you grew older, you’d realized, that the simpler the better, and so, you’d started living your life simplified, and now, you only have just one wish, is being able to die, without much trials.