I Remember You…

I remember you, as you’d appeared inside my mind, and, had you been born, you would’ve been, oh……SEVEN this year!

I remember you, but, I shouldn’t, because, how can I remember someone who don’t even exist yet, huh?  Yeah, I must be, CRAZY then!  I remember you, inside my mind’s projector (yes, I have one of those too, ‘k???), and, this project in my mind, it just, keeps on, displaying all those possibilities of you and I, of how close we would’ve been, of all the fun times we’d already had, are having, and will keep on having, right next to each other, then, I’d gotten, that WAKE up CALL again: you’re, already DEAD, or rather, still NONEXISTENT!

…the sketch of K. Kollwitz

I remember you, but how?  I mean, you don’t exist yet, like you should be, because of ALL the BULLSHITS that’s already happened in my GOD damn LIFE, I’d, made up my god DAMN mind, and oh believe me, I’d battled, too hard already with that too!, to NEVER have you, because I need to keep you safe and sound…

I remember you, because you are, etched, into my heart and burned into my soul, and you will always be mine, baby girl, and mommy still, love you, oh so very much………