All the Time on My Hands Now, to Be with You, in My Mind

You do see, how this, can go either way, right???

Here, are the, possible “outcomes”…

All the time on my hands now, to be with you in my mind, back when I busied through my day, to keep you off my mind, and yet, from time to time, my mind’d still, drifted, toward the thoughts of you, and I’d cry, ‘cuz, you’re, no longer here.

…not my painting.

Now that I don’t have work, to split my attention anymore, maybe, I can, grieve for you, all at once, and after that, I can, move on???  All the time on my hands now, to be with you in my mind, what, a wonderful thought, and, maybe, on top of spending time with you in my mind, I’ll, pick up a hobby or something too, huh?  What do you think???

All the time on my hands now, to spend with you, in my mind, and, I will always, hold you dear to me, even though you’re, no longer here anymore, as, you’d been dead, a long, long time already.  Guess I’d never, fully grieved for you yet, because with so much free time on my hand, I’d wake up crying in the morning, thinking about you, and, cried through the entire day, as I did things around the house, with you, on my mind, and, at bed time, before I’d turned off the lights, I’d catch, that glimpse of you again, and, it’d gotten me, in a melancholic mood once more.

…not my photo.

All the time on my hands, to spend with you in my head, that, sounds, like an AWFUL idea, as I don’t want anything OR anyone, to PLAGUE my mind that much, and yet, once that thought of you sets in, I can’t, get it out again!!!