Despite How You’d Hurt Me, I Still Love You…

This, would be how the “child” gets TRAPPED, after the parents had done her/him wrong, again, and again, because as children, we WERE, completely, reliant on our parents, for the sake of OUR survivals???

Despite how you’d hurt me, I still love you, and I just, kept making excuses for why you’d hurt me: you’d had had a difficult day at work, and I was getting too loud in my cries, or, I’d bugged you, at the wrong time, and angered you, it’s always going to be my fault, not yours, for you’re my heaven, my earth.  I look up to you, because you’re my parent.

the beliefs of S. Minuchin

Despite how you’d hurt me, I still love you, that, would be how the kids get STUCK, because they were taught, and told, to love, to honor, and to OBEY their parents, but, as the kids get older, and become more experienced with life and more educated, they’d come across a ton of inconsistencies in their own parents’ behaviors, like how fathers should BE faithful to their wives, but just last week, I saw father taking another woman (not mother!) out to get some drink…

not my drawing

Despite how you’d hurt me, I still love you, back then, it was, like that, because I thought I’d needed the love of my parents, to SURVIVE, but now I know, that I’d survived, without ANYBODY showing an INKLING of care OR concern toward little old me.  Despite how you’d hurt me, I still love you, well, NO more, the love had, stopped, BACK in 2008 already, and since then, I’d lost ALL my respects to ALL my elders, because they do NOT deserve my respects, and there’s nothing that anybody CAN do about that, because I’d made UP my mind on things, and once my mind’s made up, hell will have to FREEZE, thaw, FREEZE, thaw, infinite number of times, for me, to finally start, to WANT to change my god DAMN mind, and the last I checked, hell’s still HOT, so……………

Despite how you hurt me, I still love you, because you were my parent, and, because blood IS, thicker than water, well, I forgot to read the last part of that, on how love IS thicker than blood, and, there’s still NO love that’s passed between us.