He’d gathered up, finally, the most of that large, five-thousand-piece puzzle that was, his own past, and started, putting them together, so he can get a clearer, a closer look, at exactly WHAT had happened to him as a child…
Re-constructing that missing part of his own past, he’d taken on this, next-to-impossible task, but he’d become, determined, that he was to, manage it well. He was NOT going to allow ANYTHING, or ANYONE, to get in HIS way of so-doing, after all, how can he not know of what’d happened to himself in the past, before he’s able to, live in the present, and move on, into the future???
Re-constructing that missing part of his own past, this is, a next-to-impossible task he’d undertaken, and because he had NOTHING to start with, he’d had to, collect the data, from scratch, and yet, so many facts, so many pieces of the truths, were misplaced by time. Re-constructing that missing part of his own past, he’d sat here, stared at the puzzle pieces that’s taken up his entire dining room table, for HOURS now, and still, he couldn’t, piece TWO piece together.
Re-constructing the missing part of his own past, how is he going to be able to, all the related persons that holds separate facts about his generation are all sick, dying, or, already DEAD! And, there’s NO archive that he can dig into, to find out more, as those parts of that long-ago history had already, been, erased!
Re-constructing the missing part of his own past, he’d finally, given up on it, for now, although in his mind, he’d vowed, to NEVER return to this table, with the puzzle pieces all scattered, but he knows that eventually, he’ll, return, and, repeat this cycle of starting out energetic, then, getting tired, as the tasks become too difficult, then, he’ll try to, talk himself out of NOT giving up, and he’ll, give up on the pursuits, then, feel drawn to it, to start anew again………