Fasting to Lose Weight,

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Translated…

Back in high school, in order to lose weight, I’d stopped eating and drinking altogether; as I watched all of my classmates in their uniform skirts, showing off their slender legs, I’d felt so inferior, and could only work hard, to cover myself up wearing my gym uniforms.

Comparing to the other classmates, I’m more full-figured, although I’m not at the point of being obese, but the excess fat on my body troubled me so, and yet, I’m not agile, or good in sports at all, and back then, I’d spent ALL my mind of test prep, I just, couldn’t find any extra energy to exe3rcises, so, I’d chosen, to stop eating food, and used fasting to help me control my weight.

After I’d stopped eating, my weight did, drop a little, but, whenever I couldn’t not eat anymore, and had a bit more food, the moment I’d stepped on the scale, I’d felt, especially shameful, as if, eating was, something that’s punishable. And, I’d gotten to the point that I’d become, a bit, anorexic, and when my mother came to me with some food and urged me to eat it, I’d, gotten angry at her.

One night in the middle, I was just, overtaken by my hunger, I’d planned, to fill my stomach up with water, and, I’d entered the kitchen, and found, that supper was, right there, untouched, turns out, my mother didn’t eat……for several days, my mother seemed to have decided on fasting with me, at first, I’d not, paid any heed, until one day, she’d passed out, because of the lack of food intake.

Sitting in front of her hospital bed, seeing my mother’s weakened face, I’d felt nothing but regrets. How, can I not have understood my mom? But my mother didn’t say a word, hoped, that I can, understand her point on my own. It’s said, that mothers are, connected to the daughters by heart, I think, as a child starved, the mother probably, couldn’t possibly, eat either.

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After that, I’d, returned to my normal eating habits, and, suppressed my desires for putting on the short skirts; after college, life became busier, plus I’d worked out like crazy, and my body finally, slowly, toned up. Thinking back to how I’d dieted by fasting, I was way too foolish, but I knew, that dieting, is a long and difficult road, without the cares and concerns from the families, there wouldn’t be, any results. And, the society is now, less discriminatory, and people no longer looked at those who are overweight any different, and most of the people are dieting, because of health.

Recently, my niece who is in middle school stated on FB, that she’s on a diet, and said NO to sweets and desserts, and so, I’d sent her a recipe that specializes in helping people lose weight, and told her of this history of mine, hoped, that she can find the right way, to lose weight.

So, the mother got to this woman, because she’s worried that her daughter wasn’t eating enough, and the daughter just, refused to eat, and so, she’d, stopped eating too, and, that led to the mother passing out, which was a wakeup call for this young woman, and she realized, that she needed to stay healthy, and that everybody is different, has a different makeup in body, so, not everybody can have that cloth-rack body type.