Translated…
I saw the bank statement that my husband had underneath his briefcase, I thought it was, for filing of the assets, but, I’d looked closer, and it was, the terms of mortgage of the house, the deadline was twenty years, until he’s eighty. I was, shocked, we lived under the same roofs for so long, rode in the same car to and from work, and this serious matter, I’d not known about, it seemed, that he’d, kept it from me intentionally.
I’d started trembling, and placed that sheet back where I’d found it, and gotten so angered, wanted to call him up and ask what it was about, we’d worked hard, and finally paid up the mortgage owed to this place we live in, and, I’d felt relaxed, for no more than five years, and, I’d heard, from around, that he’d been, cheating on me, but in order to keep the household intact, I’d chosen, to become, an ostrich, if we can’t be a married couple, being friends is fine too, I thought that everything was fine, but, he’d bought another property, could it be, that he’d wanted to, move in with the other woman after he’s older?
But, in the console of my sister’s words, “Don’t think so negative”, I’d calmed back down, and started thinking in reverse, so long as I don’t put up the money, why would I get mad? We had two sons, it doesn’t matter what he’d wanted to do with the new property, just treat it as buying the properties for our sons, one for each, that’s fair; we’re at the age of retirement, and we lived in an apartment with the stairs, the apartment he bought was in a building with an elevator, and maybe, it’s for my son, and I get to live with my son when I’m elderly, it doesn’t feel that awful at all.
He’s a government worker, has a monthly pension, and I’d not needed to carry his debts; and, the prices of the properties are higher than the debts, and my wages are, higher than his too, I’d lived on my own, and not needed him to support me, and if he’d loved playing that mysterious game, then, I’ll just, let him. Having another woman with him, he’d become, stimulated, and won’t become demented, it should be my blessings after all. Those manmade calculations couldn’t beat the fates, why would I need to get to the truth, that’s still at the bottom of it all?
The writer, Jin Yong wrote, “Coming quickly as the water and the gone like the wind, don’t know whence it came, and where it’s going to go”. The words are easily understood, and, being affected by this to the point that I couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep well, couldn’t focus on work, it’d already, destroyed the way I live my life, it’s hurting me first, and foremost, and, what can I do, after I got the answers from him? So, I’d changed my thoughts, and let it all go.
So, this is apparently, a woman’s take on her husband’s buying a property secretively, and, we don’t know what happened before, so, we can’t be sure of what’s happening, but, this woman had chosen, to change her thoughts, so she feels better about life, and, even IF her husband was buying that property for someone else, it still wouldn’t affect her life one bit, and that, is how an intelligent woman handles things.