Yeah, feeling that insurmountable loss again, and I’m more than ALLOWED to here, so, BEAR with me!!!
My dearest child, EMILY, mommy’s crying over you again, and, it’s been, NINE whole years since you would’ve been conceived, but you never was, and, perhaps, it’s me, having my emotional up and down, because it’s that time of the month (don’t EVEN, MORONS!!!)…
not my photo…
To my dearly beloved, nonexistent, and already DEAD baby girl, mommy still love you tons, but make no doubt, I do NOT (why is it that I feel like I’m still repeating everything again???) miss you, I’m just feeling that strong sense of loss again is all, but, give me a few minutes (no more than an hour’s time), until these tears dried back up, and I will be fine.
To my dearly beloved, NONEXISTENT, and already DEAD baby girl, you can’t imagine how much I really do love you, you WERE, the best thing that could EVER happened to me, and still, you’re already dead, because of ALL the EVILS that’s already happened to me, which is why (still feel the need to STRESS this here!!!), I will NOT be having you, EVER, because this world is still so very full of FUCKING shit, and I know, that if you’re the EXACT replica of me (which you are bound to be, because we will ALWAYS share the same stars at the same places in our charts!), you will take everything just as hard as I’m still taking things.
not my photo still…
To my dearly, beloved, NONEXISTENT, and already DEAD baby girl, this is mommy, missing you again, and although I don’t feel that strong void, that emptiness inside of me anymore (‘cuz the seven little sheep’s mommy had placed ALL those rocks inside???), I still feel emotional sometimes, but, don’t worry, child, mommy just, need me a good cry, and I’ll be fine…rest in peace, my love!
Life, the Obstacle Course 