Because family is still, a TOTAL BITCH, and, although we want to, AVOID being in contact with them, which we were all able to do, the other days of the year, however, when the holidays rolled around…
Detached, during the holidays, this had been found (by me!!!), to be, the BEST way to cope, as I’m still, hearing a TON of background noises, from everybody around me (families, friends, relatives, etc., etc., etc.), telling me, to put on my BEST kind of holiday cheers, but, uh, just don’t feel quite up to it, and yet, I’d still had to, put that smiley face mask on, just to please them, as NOBODY likes a downer, especially, ‘round the holidays!
Detached, during the holidays, because I can be, because that, is the only way, I can cope, with the FACT, that you should be, closing on SEVEN, but, you’re still, DEAD. Detached, during the holidays, while everybody else is enjoy that stupid (feel free to call me THE SCROOGE!!!) holiday cheer, I’m here, basking, in the sentiments of loss, because you’re, no longer alive………
Detached, during the holidays, I may be “here” (don’t ask where “here” is still!!!), but, I’m actually, elsewhere, because I can dissociate at ANY time I feel like it, and there’s NO way that anybody ELSE, can tell me, HOW to cope, ‘cuz??? Oh yeah, it’s still, MY god DAMN life, and I still got every right, to LIVE it, the way I choose to, and that is that!!!
