To You, Who’s No Longer in Existence

Paying tribute…

To you, who’s no longer in existence, you would’ve been, very loved if you were conceived, but you were never, given that chance, to come out, and greet the world, with that very first, loud cry of yours.

To you, who’s no longer in existence, this, is someone who loves you very much, and, although, you’re NEVER going to be formed, I have ZERO regrets for not carrying you in me, and going through labor, to bring you out into this GOD DAMN world I was born into, more than thirty fucking (oopsy!!!) years ago.

To you, who’s no longer in existence, I had, battled, real hard, with myself, about your no longer being alive, but, I’d finally, found that peace of mind, knowing, that not having you, would be, the BEST option for us both, because I will NEVER allow you, my darling Emily (b/c that was the name that kept popping up into my FREAKIN’ god DAMN mind???) to get ABUSED and NEGLECTED like I had been, all the way, up to 2008, and, it’s been nine years since you’d been gone, and, your mama is still, strong as ever here!!!

nope, not from MY prenatal exams, hello, hello, hello, you’ve GOT to be shittin’ me here!!!

To you, who’s no longer here, there IS a reason, for all of this that’s happened to us, and gladly, I’d already, gotten it all, figured out, and I still don’t need a god damn, mother FUCKING (and your point being???) T-A-D-P-O-L-E from, especially Y-O-U (and no, this is still NOT directed toward anybody, but if you think it’s about you, then, that’s YOUR PROBLEM!!!), to GET MY dead daughter Emily made, and even IF I were to conceive this already DEAD for SEVEN fucking (oopsy!!!) years child, I still much RATHER have “her”, from an ANONYMOUS donor S-P-E-R-M!!!