Understandings of life here, translated…
I’d asked for a year off from work for some reasons, and recently, I’d, returned back to work again, the first day after my return to the office, and after I’m done, catching up with my coworkers, I’d opened up my mailbox, and, in the assortment of ads and the already, outdated office meeting notices, a letter of a funeral caught my eyes.
Opening up the fil, I started hollering, “She’d passed? How?”, “Yeah, it’s been six months.” “She bumped her head in the shower one night.” “She’d just filed for retirement, and……sigh!”, everybody started answering my inquiries all at once, I’d not said anything, but, my mind was, filled up with the images of her, getting screamed at by our department manager every single day these couple of years.
From before she’d worked in personnel, the work assigned to her, she’d done well, and, she’d gotten off on time, and had gotten to the aerobic dance studios to put in some exercises, her days were leisurely. A couple of years ago, in order to get more from her retirement pension, she’d fought for a position from our unit that’s higher up, although she had NO experiences in the insurance sales department; and because of it, the finance reports, as well as the analysis she’d turned in, were completely, wastes, and we’d heard her, getting grilled by our office manager. Slowly, she’d, gotten off work, later, and later, and, her smiles were gone, and, several times I’d bumped into her in the break room, asked her if she’d wanted to get transferred back to her original unit, she’d shaken her head, said she’d wanted to, save more money for her kids’ education that she’s saving her hobbies for after the retirement.
I kept imagining, the moment she’d closed her eyes, did she have any regrets, if she’d known earlier, that there was, no “after I retired”, would she, in the final years of her life, chosen differently?
Life is constantly changing, nobody knows when something is going to happen, if you want to do something, do it now, because nobody knows, if there’s, a later, live in the now, it doesn’t matter what roles you take up in life, never forget, that there’s a “self” that needed to be cared for, that needed to be satisfied.
So, this, is a lesson learned, from someone’s death, the woman originally had it well, she was, fitted well in her original work, but, because she’d wanted to make a little bit more money, that, was why she’d transferred to another department, and, because the department she’d worked in later didn’t fit her interest profile, she’d not excelled in it as she had done in her previous department that she’d transferred from, and, the stresses had caused her to get ill, and, she’d, died. Something CAN be taken from all of this: if you’re doing something that makes you very unhappy, then, STOP, after all, keeping that good health mentally is the most important thing, and, if you have a good mental health, then, everything else will flow accordingly, and if you don’t have a good mental health, then, all the other aspects of your lives will show that too.
Life, the Obstacle Course 