A Letter to My Husband

Between a husband and a wife, translated…

Before we wed, you said, that our children and I are your sweetest burdens.

Five years later, the pressures from the mortgage had made you agitated, and, our originally warm home became, cold all of a sudden, and you’d not noticed at all.

That evening, we started fighting, I’d left home on the trains, my cell phone rang again, after a long while, I’d, picked up, you asked me where I was in a panic, and begged for my forgiveness, and in the very end, I’d still, come back home to you.  I’d once thought of leaving home with the kids, but, I couldn’t, let you, who’d hurt me over and over again, and so, the pains stayed inside of my heart, and, after a long while, I’d become, numbed out.

After many years later, I’d gone up north for a surgery, after it was over, it was, already, deep in the nights, as the anesthesia wore off, I felt nauseated, you, who’d rushed to the hospital asked me, “Do you want to throw up?”, you’d carried that pan, containing my vomit the whole night through, going to and from the bathroom, and wiped away the sweat on my forehead constantly.  Later on, I fell asleep from the fatigue, after I woke up, you’d asked me, “Are you hungry?  I’ll buy some food for you.”

Seeing how you looked after me, all of the hatred, the angers, the resentments I’d carried in me, all of a sudden, are all gone.  I’d thought, that you’re not a perfect person, so, why was I asking you to be?  And, I’d never really communicated with you at all either.  And, later on, when we had fights, I’d recalled that night, how you took care of me wholeheartedly, and, you’d heard the words of my children and I, worked hard, to improve your easily agitated moods.

Couples may argue from time to time, but, for the sake of winning the fight, ending up losing the love and respect from your spouse, it’s a lose-lose situation, and the children also become the innocents who would be hurt in the process.

Recalling how stormy our marriage was from when we were wed ten years ago, after I’d searched for so very long, I’d finally understood, that making the love work, giving our children a warm home, that, was why we were wed at the very beginning.

And so, this woman learned, from the years of experiences with her husband, that he does love her, and, she’s willing to give her man another try, but, this can still turn into abuse easily.