This is still NOT dealing with it, whatever IT may be…
Ever since the past started coming back to me again, I’d been, trying, to PREVENT myself, to re-experience those events of my long and forgotten (not to mention DEAD!) past again.
Trying to avoid what happened to me in the past, I was, abandoned, left, to DIE off on my own as a child, but, despite what others may have wished, I had, survived. Trying to avoid what happened to me in the past, that, was what I’d been, working so hard, to accomplish, every time I felt that disgusting past, about to flow back up into my mind, I’d, PUSH it downward, deeper, deeper, and deeper, until, it’s once again, submerged, suppressed, by my consciousness.
Trying to avoid the past, I no longer can, because lately, the past keeps on, coming back, into my freakin’ mind, destroying, my originally peaceful nights, but, I’m ill-equipped, to slay those MONSTERS in the dark, and, there is, NO knight in shiny armor to come to my rescue either, so, I can only, run………
Trying to escape the past, I’m not going to, because, look what those years of escapes had led me? NOWHERE! And, I’m tired, getting hunted, it’s my turn, to, HUNT down the past now, and, I will finally, SLAY, those GOD DAMN monsters for once, and for all, and, they will, STAY D-E-A-D, because I say so!
