Scars Should be Given Their Shares of Dignities Too

Translated…

In order to prevent the troubles that come later on, in a hurry, I’d added the title for my essays for my newspaper columns, “Farewell to Scars”.

And still, I was, wrong.

After my book was published, I’d realized, that that subtitle was merely, a proclamation of the spiritual kind; the real scars, you can say farewell to.  At the same time, I’d also come to understand, the best way to treat a scar is to fix it up better, so it would be more complete.  So, for so many years, the only work I’m focused on doing consistently was “patching up”.  And during this time, because my hard drive fried, naturally, the essays I was “fixing” as well as the articles I’d written myself, all gone, it’d caused me to feel upset and hopeless.

And still, I’d still never forgotten, “patching things up”, this very important lesson in life.  Gladly, I had, saved some things, and asked the editing department to send me my backup files, to reexamine the facts I’d gotten wrong, that I’d missed on.

And so, you may get upset, because everything you’d worked so god DAMN hard for, is gone, because of a GOD DAMN computer glitch, I know I had, and I’d beaten myself up over it, why didn’t I save my work as I’d worked on my writings, why did this have to happen, and yet, NO matter how hard I’d blamed myself for being so god DAMN careless, all those missing files just refused to get found again, because, I was way too STUPID (okay, okay, I admit!) to NOT remember, saving my work, and, I’d ruminated in this sort of negativity for some time, then, one day, I’d dropped all of that, and, restarted again, and, now, what was it that my computer “murdered”?  I really can’t recall!  And that just shows, how when your problems happen, they may look AWFUL for the time being, because it’d just happened, and, you need to, STEP away from whatever it is you’re working on, take a deep breath, and, see things from a brand new perspective, and I know how hard that can be, because I had troubles, letting it go too from before, but now, I let it all go, after all, what’s gone, is gone, and NO amount of me, SCREAMING, or TEARING my HAIR out, is going to help me find those files back again!