The wishes of a first-time mother for her own firstborn child, translated…
As my baby was born, I’d gained a new identity as a first time mom. Because this was my firstborn, I’m somewhat, walking on eggshells, watching over his tiny body, feared that I might hurt him if I was a bit careless, or that I may have overlooked some small areas of concerns in caring for him. I’d checked my resources, or consoled other more experienced mothers, but, every child is different, and what works for someone else’s babies may not work for my child, there’s a lot of things to consider.
I remembered how a short while after I’d taken him home from the hospital, don’t know what’s wrong with him, he just started crying, endlessly, until he became hoarse, seeing the painful expression on my child’s face, feeling helpless, I could only, hold him, as I cried with him.
Until I’d finally gotten the hang of his schedules, he’d gotten tired of milk and stopped wanting to drink it, I’d tried an assortment of positions to hold him, and a small bottle of milk was still filled up after a few hours’ time, and, it came, the next feeding time, it’d gotten me a huge headache, whenever I see the bottles.
Barfing, crying, and an assortment of other mishaps, after this trial if over, there came the next ones. The baby is constantly growing, as mom, I’d chased behind him, and, learned to give him what he’d needed from me, and I’d felt strained.
Because of work, I’d recently sent him to the nursery, but he’d started getting sick. His original cold had caused him to get an inner ear infection, and, I’d taken him to get a shot by accident, and, the stomach flu that was flowing around, so unlucky.
My baby had a high fever for days on end, my husband and I fought hard with him, battling his ailments, in the middle of the nights, we’d soaked him, to get him to cool back down, although it’s tiring, but seeing how my baby is getting better by the day, and started becoming active once more, we’d tossed all the hardships we’d faced behind us in an instant.
The process of taking care of my son made me realized, that I will always be a “first time” mom forever, there are so many things I need to learn, and I also need to have the ability to react fast too. But, seeing how innocently my son smiled, all of this, is more than worth it. Dear baby, mommy only want you to grow up healthy and happy.
And so, this, is the wish of a mother for her son, and, it’s such simple wish, but, because you’re a first time mother, you’d stressed over the smallest matters, and, sometimes, all you need to do, is just relax, and allow things to fall into their rightful places, but, I can understand why it is, that new mothers would get stressed out over the smallest matters.