This, is many, many, MANY years, after he’d FUCKED around, by the way…
Why can’t you just forgive your father for cheating on me, I had! I mean, it wasn’t as if you’re the one he’d cheated on, it was ME, whom he’d cheated on, and, I’m no longer mad, so, why you still mad at your father?
Because…here’s W-H-Y: I’d carried ALL the emotional burdens of your FUCKED up marriage for since I was very young, and, although you’d NEVER allowed me to see the two of you going AT it (duking it out???), I’d still felt an enormous amount of tension, pressure and stress, building up between the two of you, and, seeing how I’m still the GOD DAMN firstborn, I’d carried ALL of that, and, I know, you THANKED me for taking care of ALL of your emotions, but, you still NEVER asked me to, right?
Why can’t you just forgive your father for cheating on me? I had, uh, because he was the one who FUCKED (don’t pardon me this time, y’all!) up, as you WERE the one, who couldn’t give him the ECSTASIES, that, was why he’d had to find his “thrills” elsewhere, and yet, I’d still carried the emotional burdens of your marriage for all my life, and, how am I supposed to forgive the years of unstop, never-ending abuse AND neglect that the two of you DEADBEAT and UNFIT had imposed upon me?
So you see, it is, NOT in the nature of a child, to forgive, even AS the child becomes an adult!
Life, the Obstacle Course 