Written by the close family friend of the actress, Yo-Ying Yang, on her suicide, from the Front Page Sections, translated…
Twenty years ago, I bore witness once, to the active, upbeat, and well-behaved Yo-Ying Yang, because her father, Peng, was a former instructor of mine. I’d learned about how Peng had lost his daughter on the television programs, he’d still carried that grace about him. For this, the school principal, Lee wrote the article, “A Father without Hate”, pushed forth the “option of forgiveness and understanding”, it’d made my heart wrench.
One hundred fifty-five days ago, my youngest daughter was discovered, as a dead corpse, on a green onion field in Yilan another one of her female classmates was found, afloat, in the ditch close by. All the signs pointed to foul play, but, there was NO physical evidence, to help put the killer to justice. The parents of these two broken families were filled with hatred toward the murderer of their kin, and swore on how they would NEVER rest, until the truth came out.
And now, there are so many commends on “Treating Those Who’d Wronged Us with Kindness”, and, this had submerged our instincts to seek out revenge. It is, righteous, to forgive those who’d done us wrong. I’d often heard people commented, “So and so is so righteous, never talked badly about another”, I’d not believed: although the person is NOT talking ill, who can tell if the person is NOT thinking ill of the individuals who’d harmed their loved ones? And, even if it’s so, then, it’s all very superficial.
My face right now is one that’s filled with a ton of hatred, because my daughter’s murderer is still out there, he’s without his conscience, and the truth still hadn’t come out. We will state, with the Yilan district attorney’s courts: if the killer had listened to his own conscience, and turn himself into the police, and tell the families exactly what had happened, and apologizes to the remains of the daughters inside the urns, we’d willing to “choose the options of forgiveness and tolerance”; and give up on the pursuits of monetary repatriations from the civil court fronts. And, whether or not we forgive? Entirely up to the killer’s attitude.
Peng’s father was kind enough, to not pursue those who’d caused his daughter to commit suicide, I’d honestly hoped, that the person who bullied Yo-Ying Yang to come out, and face up to what you’d done. If I hadn’t had the experiences of losing my own daughter, I couldn’t come to know how much sadness and sorrows that I’d sung, on my daughter’s funeral, with a broken pitch, “My daughter, best in the world, a father with a daughter is a treasure, one without, like a ragweed…”, my daughter, you “must” become a haunting ghost, to help catch the real killers that took your life, daddy is still in pain!
Can you imagine how much goes INTO forgiving someone who’d murdered your own child so brutally? Although the actress’s death is a suicide, because she’d ended her own life, but, the events leading UP to the moments before her committing suicide is more like a murder, caused by those who’d left those NASTY messages on her Facebook account, and, this writer had lost his daughter, to murder too, and, how is he going to let go, knowing that his daughter should be at the age of her youth, instead, she’s already DEAD? How, can ANYBODY forgive, and move on? Nobody can, we may move on, but, we will NEVER forget, OR forgive for that matter!
Life, the Obstacle Course 